
As I have gone through this experiment, I have been trying to determine what most helps me and what most hinders me in my dependence on God. As I said last time, every situation has the potential to do either, we determine the outcome by the perspective from which we view the situation. What I have discovered, however, is that I am the least dependent on God when there is no "situation" to deal with, when life is just normal. I have no trouble depending on God when there is something big going on in my life that I need His help with. I
know I am incapable of making it through those
difficult times without Him, but for some reason I
think I can make it through the
easy times without Him. It isn't that I intentionally don't depend on Him; I don't wake up on a normal day and have the conscious thought,
"God, I've got this one. I don't need you today." Much to the contrary, I tell Him that I know I need Him and I beg Him to remind me of that need throughout the day. All the same, as the day progresses, without fail, I forget. I forget that I need God. Even as I type that sentence I understand the ridiculousness of it. How can I forget that I need God? He is the Giver of life, more than that, He is
the Life, He is my Father, my Best Friend, my King, my Lord, my Provider, my Strength, my Hope, my Salvation and on and on and on. He is everything to me, yet I forget that I need Him in the normalcy of life. I get so distracted by the things of this world (not even necessarily bad things, just things) that I forget that without Him I could not stand on my own two feet. How can I forget that?
God, I need You, and I need You to remind me that I need You. Don't let me forget all that You have done for me and all that You are to me. Remind me of my incapability to live life without You. Show me that I need You not only when life is hard, but also when life is easy. I am nothing without You; You are everything to me. Let me never forget that!!!
"Apart from me you can do NOTHING." John 15:5