In Romans 1:25 it says, "They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator—who is forever praised. Amen." This verse hit me several years ago and has continued to be a strong reminder to guard my heart against depending on anything else other than the Creator Himself. The challenge in this is that there are a lot of great things God has created that are so good and I can become dependent on. For example, I have the best family ever. I love being at home. My wife and my kids bring me tremendous joy. I feel safe, understood and encouraged there. No matter how my day is going, I have the thought that I am probably the richest man in any room because I have a home that is peaceful-no eggshells to walk on, no strain in the relationships, no fear of anyone going crazy. It is an amazing blessing that I have. I love my family!
But here is the truth: It is all created. My wife, my son, my daughter, my house, my possessions, the relationships that we share, the words we use to express our love for each other, my own body and mind and heart - all of it was "created". So I ask myself, "Am I dependent on God or am I dependent on these things?". The answer can be seen by asking myself this. "If God took it all away, would I experience a break in my relationship with God?" I'm not asking if I would mourn and hurt or if I would ask God a lot of questions(that is a God-given response). I'm asking if my relationship with God would be damaged. If it would, it shows that I am presently depending more on something else than I am on Him. So, to be specific, lets say that God decides to allow my beautiful 6-year old daughter to die. When it happens, if my relationship with God is strained and there's a doubt of whether I can continue to worship Him, what I am demonstrating is that I am more dependent on me having my daughter than on God.
With this in mind, our Experiment falls in the same category(though not as dramatic, of course). It is a created thing. As it draws to an end, I realize I will miss it. It was comforting to have a plan of how to approach God. It was encouraging to have daily reminders and to meet weekly with everybody to hear of their progress. But the same God will be with me in the future that has been with me these last 7 weeks. Losing the "structure" of the Experiment will be felt, but how my relationship with God continues after that will show what the impact was. Did I develop a stronger dependence on God or did I develop a dependence on the Experiment and the other people involved?
So, what are you depending on?