Saturday, March 1, 2008

*Porcelain Heart*

(2-24-08, last weeks blog...a little late I know and I'm sorry. I hope ya'll forgive me.)

Wow...where do i start? God is so good. I've already seen and experienced Him working many times through all this and we've only been doing this for two weeks! I'm so excited and can't wait to see what else God will do during the next five weeks...and even further down the road.

Well, for starters, my week didn't start out so great. I had this huge research paper due Friday and I was going to get a large portion of it done monday, because we had school off. The next thing you know my day is pretty much gone and I've done none of my paper. I look back at my day and realize that I made no efforts to totally depend on my God and let him take care of my day. Instead, I had filled my day with distractions like the computer and T.V..By the time I had reached the end of my day I was a complete wreck. I had already begun to stress about my paper and I had the whole week ahead of me.

Before you know it I find myself in my mothers arms at the feet of our Father. Together, we did what I should have been doing all day. (It's amazing how God uses other people to help us refocus.) We gave it to God...told him that I couldn't do this alone, without Him. It was out of my control...that was obvious...and it was all him.

Throughout last week a couple of my transitions consisted of: 'Thank you Abba for the answers you will provide' -referring to my paper trusting that he would help me- and 'Help me to keep an optimistic outlook' -knowing that even though I tend to be rather pecimistic I had the choice to which perspective I would view a situation with, including this one.

Looking back on that week It was definately apparent that God was working. Wouldn't you know that my paper came together smoothly even after the rough start, and I had remotely no stress the rest of the week? In fact, this was the first paper, if I remember correctly, that I have written with relatively no stress, rather I had this unexplainable peace that was with me. Also, through out all this somehow I had an overall positive attitude/perspective. The only explanation is God. I give him the glory. Isn't our God amazing?

Father, I thank you so much for being with me through this, however small it may be, and giving me a glimpse of you, your awesome power, and your love. I ask that you continue to walk with me and guide me as I strive to become more dependant on you.

Philippians 2:13
"...for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose."


~Silver Lining~ said...

Acknowledging & admitting that you need God's help shows true humility & dependence. Thank you for letting yourself be worthless so He can use you. You are a great example, my friend!

Jenni said...

Your Mom sounds like an instrument of God in your life, a true blessing! In answer to every critic who has ever asked a Christian, "How can you believe in a God you can't even see?"
Clearly, you do see him. You see him reaching out to you from your mother's arms or in your friend's smiles. You hear his voice when people he sends your way give you encouragement and godly advice. You see him whenever you open your eyes and choose to look for him!

Beastlyone said...

It is not the size of the task, but rather the size of your faith that matters. Every situation is an opportunity to move closer or farther away from your Father. You had a choice and by making a conscious choice to turn it over to Him, you experience the fruit of your decision. Thanks for sharing your journey with us.

Augustine said...

Really good stuff.

I hate research papers. I hate the fact that I put them off. When I'm doing them, though, it isn't that bad.

It's funny how the Enemy twists things into huge struggles when they really aren't a big deal at all. Keep being dependent on God.